Should we be sad? Should we be happy? I don't know. I keep telling her that we should be happy. We are pursuing our dreams. We may be far together, but we're still at the end together. We still love each other and strive to hang on to each other. Others always ask us. What happens now? But we have never felt like giving up. We are strong.
That is what we should be happy about. However, I can also understand why she is sad. I am sad too. But I'm never good in showing that I'm sad. We will not be seeing each other for a year or two. We will be living separate lives. We can't feel each other anymore. The human touch is lost. I feel the worry here is the fear of being tempted, being cared, being LOVED by someone else when we're abroad. We are or at least I AM afraid, that I would forget the intense emotions that we have. The bond. The love.
But, is everything going to be so scripted? Can't we write our own fate? I believe we can. I have heard a lot from friends about long distance relationships. "Matthew, its difficult." I know. It is difficult but I will try. LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP IS POSSIBLE. Everything I say now WILL sound like bullshit. I admit. But only time can tell. And time WILL tell.
But for now, what I know is that I really love this girl. From the start, I have known that she's the one. Why? Because it felt like that. Yes, I have a lot of girlfriends last time. But does it mean that I will not settle down for the rest of my life? If that's the case, every criminal should not be imprisoned. They should be sentenced to death immediately after they are found guilty. But why isn't it that way? It is because of HOPE. It is because everyone has a conscience. Its because people can change. Some may take a week, some may take a week and some may take years. I've been in my prison for 7 years. I know, I've done wrong. I repent.
After writing this post, I think we should be happy. Separation will test our faith. It will make us think deeply than ever about a relationship. Are we really in love? It will answer a lot of questions that may affect our lives in the future. I am happy. In fact I am glad that I have been chosen by God to undergo this test. It is a blessing. It is a test to clear the water. :)
Putting a smile into my backpack.
10 comments:
i have my trust in you daddy~~~ i trust you u will do your best to the thing that you want to do.. don't 4get, i will always support you where ever u need me... mommy~~ no need worry.. trust is the most important thing that you have to build up.. trust daddy... he is the right person in your life~~^^
awww my darling daughter.. I will miss you like you will never imagine.. :) i will also be there if you need me. Always. :)
Don't worry lao ba! We'll always be around supporting you! I know you can do it and I believe you can. Yes, we're feeling sad that we're parting for a long while, but deep down inside we are happy for you and mummy because you guys are going to pursue your dreams. Keep it up! I'll keep you in prayers and as time passes we'll meet again. Love you, miss you and thanks for taking care of me and correcting me.
Remember high maintainence is better than no maintainence in a relationship. I know you will continue to keep in touch with Melody and us as well..... :P
My sweet sweet sarah... :) Yes I will keep in contact with all of you here who has a special place in my heart.. :) Don't thank me.. :) I am honored to be the one who can try to make you a better person.. :) love you! :)
Hey Matthew, I'm Lydia here. :) I read ur blog, and I believe both of u can do it! Stay strong together even though if is a long distance relationship. I believe is possible to have a long distance relationship! :D
Thanks for the words of encouragement! :) I will definitely try! :) thank you so much for being my friend in KDU. :)
Hey, Matt. =)
Ahh. Separation. Personally am going through it as well, so here's my two cents--
Separation IS a mix of both sadness and happiness. It is the beginning of exciting new things to come and yet it signals the end of things which are so familiar to us. But it's an inevitable change (especially for our age).
You are correct to say that the human connection will/may be lost in time (cause well, it'll be hard for both parties to be there for each other both emotionally and physically).
And whilst you're away, you're bound to meet people and forget new friendships/attractions (it's life). Unless of course you choose to totally cut that off, lol. But I'm just being realistic :)
However at the end of the day, as pointed out, recipe of love = faith;hope;believe. Faith in what you have established in one another, hope for the future, and believe that true love will always come back to you.
So, separation = what you want it to be. Embrace it with a pinch of salt.
Hope this helps :)
.Sha-Lyn.
hahahaa... i love your view on it.. :) well I will embrace it with all I have.. :) thanks sha lyn.. :)
Everyone gets a really sweet goodbye message and i only get a thanks T_T lols. i'm kidding =p have fun in ausssieee!
hahahahaa.. aww sha lyn.. :) you know you are a special friend.. I'm getting to that.. :) don't you worry.. will never forget you.. :)Will be writing about everyone soon. :) now still too early.. :)
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